I Wish We Never Met

I remember when we met

We never expected to become friends

We were so different then

And I did not have a single regret

Our relationship was small

Our conversations were absurd

We rarely felt insulted

We didn’t hate each other at all

Now things are different

You were always somewhat cruel

Please tell me what I did

That turned you indifferent

Your words cut deep

Deeper than glass

And my heart bleeds

As I cry myself to sleep

I sob because of you

Because I remember the friendship we once shared

How it grew and grew

Until you decided we were through

At first, I ignored it

Ignored your insults

Dismissing your comments

Allowing my throat to be slit

You changed too much

You changed me, too

I went from loving your presence 

Now I fear your touch

How can I cure

The damage you have caused

This constant ache is tormenting me

It is a nightmare I cannot endure

I stay up all night

Thinking of you

Wondering that if we had never met

Maybe I wouldn’t be drowning in your spite

I still remember back in the day

When we had fun

Now you stalk your enemies

And treat them like your prey

Now my head spins with pain

My eyes are bloodshot and red from tears

My conscience is asking “why?”

Asking why you have become so vain

My blood boils with rage

My heart weeps in sorrow

My head torments itself with thoughts

And I feel trapped in this cage

What event filled you with malice

What did I do wrong, how can I help

What change occurred in you

To turn you so callous

I understand the fault is mine

For ruining our bond

I thought our friendship was okay

Now I acknowledge that we are far from fine

My heart still loves you like a friend

But my head hates you like I should

My heart begs me to reconnect

But my head screams that this is the end

It pains me to say this

But it has been a burden for too long

The weight is too much to bear

And it I will not miss

You enjoy seeing pain on my face

And you like making me cry

You have now lost my grace

And now I can no longer lie

You and I are tired of being in the same space

And now I’m ready to say goodbye

You are my biggest regret

It pains me to say this after all the time we’ve spent

Despite our happy memories…

I wish we never met.